Showing posts from November, 2010

Flashlight Holders

What is a flashlight holder you might ask? In this most difficult time in my life, when all seemed dark, and scary, and overwhelming, when I could not see God, He sent people with flashlights to help me find my way home. He knew I had been in the dark so long that the sunshine would only scare me away. He knew that I was so lost that I had given up. He knew there would be no magical transformation, that the road would be long and painful. He knew I would trip and stumble. And I have. But over and over again, there each of you have been, arms extended, flashlights in hand. In your kindness, I, for the first time in my life, have been able to see God's love for me. I have been overwhelmed at the grace you have shown me. From a delicious meal, a hand to hold, late night phone calls when I have been afraid, to refusing to let me sit still for too long and constant reminders that I am not my circumstance, You have each been a living breathing example of God's lov

The Disappearing, Reappearing Check

The past few days have been rather, well, stressful. I have struggled a great deal, mostly on my own, and generally within my own mind. Monsters have seemed bigger than usual. My hopes and dreams seemed farther away. My energy level for chasing said dreams was drained. And then today happened. A few weeks ago our house was damaged in a storm and today I got a check from the insurance company in the mail. I signed it, and since I didn't have any deposit slips was smart enough to write all my bank info on it as well, and pulled into the Regions Bank Drive Thru. I rolled down my window, and well, ya'll know how windy it's been? My check went flying out the window!!!!!! I pulled over and looked and looked for it. I cried. I was so flustered! So I called the insurance company and cancelled the check and headed home feeling rather retarded. And then I got a phone call, from someone named Junior, and he had found my check at Krogers (how it got there???? We sh