Showing posts from October, 2010

How Long?

How long do I lay here? When is it ok to stand? Could someone please show me the rules? I don't know them I only know I can't take one more moment in this place How long do I cry here? When is it ok to smile again? Could someone please show me the rules? I don't now them I only know the salty tears have burned lines in my skin.

If You Are A Mama of Many

If you are the Hacker Tribe Mommy ~There is no such thing as boring ~You can feed 5 kiddos, bandage a knee, and detach a turtle from a child's finger in under 10 minutes ~You have five little people who think you are superhuman and you try your best to be ~You say things like "who is licking Isaiah", "No you can't have marshmallows for breakfast", "Why did you think you could make your room a swimming pool", and "please stop barking, you are annoying the dog" ~You know what loving and sweet really is ~You praise your child because they get a duck tomorrow and have no idea what that means while secretly praying it isn't a real duck. ~You find an oddly placed spoon or fork somewhere atleast once a day though the oddest place was on top of a hanging picture frame ~There is always, always a reason to smile ~You tell Abby go to bed at least fifty times a night, and she never stays there. ~You wash 3 loads of laundry a day and ar

When she is quiet

When she is quiet she is oh so loud inside. When she is smiling, tears soak her pillows. When she is surrounded by people, she feels more alone than ever. And when she has had enough, of never being enough, she decides she isn't going to play anymore. She is going to live, And laugh, And love, without you Cause while she was quiet She heard you. And while she was crying She saw you And while you stood close She figured you out

I'm much too tired to climb a mountain

For those who don't know, the summit of Pikes Peak is at ‎14000 ft elevation. I think Johnson City is around 1600. Major difference! It takes a couple of hours to drive up and back down, mostly because you have to drive so very slow, most times in 1st or 2nd gear. There are stations all along the road to cool off your car, and check your brakes, because brake failure, and overheating are so common. The change in elevation can cause altitude sickness, headache, nausea, dizziness. There are many cars, and many people who simply cannot do it. Ah but you know, we did it anyway, even fraidy cat me who used to get nauseated looking out the top floor window of Roger Stout when I was a student at ETSU. There were tight windy curves without guardrails, signs everywhere warning of brake failure, altitude sickness, and not feeding the creatures. In our car there were tired kids, carsick kids, and a very sick Rachel. BUT, none of those things mattered when we got to the top and stood to