I'm tired. I have a lot of people reminding me of who God is. And I guess I know what they are saying is true. A God of Miracles. A God who can work wonders. A God who brings all things together for my good. Ok. But I'm tired. Is the miracle that I'm physically present? What kind of miracle is that? Is surviving and living in almost constant aching miraculous? It doesn't feel that way. It feels like torture. I've always been able to swing things back around, find the good. But lately I can't.